Being the man.

I haven't been a father for very long, nor have I been a husband for that long either. I became both almost simultaneously. I have no regrets save that I wished I had a little more time to prepare myself. But is life really about being prepared for every eventuality? I think not. I had to learn my flaws, what I was good at and what was beyond my current capabilities. I had to understand that no matter how many girlfriends I've had; I knew nothing about being a good husband. And all that notwithstanding, I had to be a better father. Not just when I come home and see my kids, but also when I leave for work. Not just when I play with and give them the time of day, but also when they are asleep. When I'm hungry and I pick up something to eat I get them something also, the kids have to eat too and do not know how to make their own food. I no longer shop for myself, they need clothes more than I. They need to know that I will be there to love and protect them not just for one day, but for as long as there is breathe in my body. I know I am not the perfect husband, I'm not a horrible one but I am improving. I can say that where I'm standing at right now today; I'm a better father.